yesterday, i went up to him but he was facing the opposite side as me, sitting on the floor..
i stood there for a while... 1 minute? 2 minute? i don't know, i was only sure that he didn't even slightly move his head to look at me, because he knows im here and he knows its me. but he decided to just ignore me, and let me stand there till whenever i want. my friends kept saying that he just thinks its awkward... what. a. coward. can't he just take out a little courage and face me just like how i did? i know he doesn't wanna be friends but he can just say it in front of my face and not just ignore me and looked ashamed every single time our eyes meet or passing through the corridors. i'm in utter disappointment towards him now.
at night, my friend and i called him because maybe it wouldn't be too much awkward than facing each other, he turned his phone off after my first call which i cut because of my lack of courage. afterwards, no matter how many times i called, he never picked up. then my friend was furious, she talked to him on fb chat in my acc and asked him why can't he just talk to me, but he never replied. i didn't get to see him talk, i didn't get to hear him talk. it was a really bad day.

so much hatred in me now... complicated life... complicated society... complicated school.
"better off dead", over my head - sum 41.