jacknight1231

yesterday, i went up to him but he was facing the opposite side as me, sitting on the floor.. i stood there for a while... 1 minute? 2 minute? i don't know, i was only sure that he didn't even slightly move his head to look at me, because he knows im here and he knows its me. but he decided to just ignore me, and let me stand there till whenever i want. my friends kept saying that he just thinks its awkward... what. a. coward. can't he just take out a little courage and face me just like how i did? i know he doesn't wanna be friends but he can just say it in front of my face and not just ignore me and looked ashamed every single time our eye

just read aqua-storme's "this is my life"... i felt really sad as well... i think its empathy, but i don't know... it was quite written in general, so i guess we have a different story behind us but we are both still really... devastated. i'm knitting. as i wrote... for him, coz it was his birthday two days ago, i was such a coward, i didn't even have the guts to say happy birthday in front of his face. my friend kept telling me to and she was shouting at me, but i just can't... i really want to but just... no. coz i know that he's avoiding me because he thinks our relationship has just gone total awkward and i don't want to confront him and

although i've been a deviant for 2 years, i don't use it frequently, and i think i haven't been on for a whole year! :P but now, im coming back again, and this time, im gonna just put up some pictures from my life before because i think its worth uploading, its pretty (to me) and i hope people like it. and coz photography became one of my hobbies :) have to thank ~Aqua-Storme because without her, i wudn't have came back and enjoy the fun stuff here in deviantArt. :) LOVE YOU! bye for now, jackiee.